Sunday, September 29, 2013

The Night Before

I have such vivid memories of Christmas Eve as a kid. We would always be off of school and my best friend would come over. We would all talk about what we thought would be under the tree the next morning. The day would be spent eating cookies and we were all so giddy with anticipation. I also remember the day before my wedding so clearly. I dreamed about my wedding and getting married for so long and it was almost here. I wanted to savor every minute. Those are the only two days I can compare to today. Tomorrow morning I am going in for a C-section. I had an emergency one with Asher, and the rest of the kids have been planned C-sections. Tomorrow I get to meet this little baby. I get to fall in love with another tiny person. I can't wait to see who it is that I have wanted and loved for all these months. The last few days have been such a mixture of emotions. I'm so excited, but for the first time sad at the thought of being at the end. This is our last baby, and it's hard to think about never experiencing this again. I'm so grateful for the family Nate and I have made together, and for one more to be added.

4 comments:

  1. I am crying. How touching! I can't wait to meet the baby either, though, probably not the same as an actual Niphakis :). Love that baby already!

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  2. beautiful post. i've been thinking of you and praying for you for the last few days.

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  3. I remember with fondness the final moments before Elise was born, via C section. I wanted just one final moment alone, just she and I. I sneaked away into a bathroom before going off to the pre-op to enjoy my final moments of being pregnant with my last child, knowing that within a few minutes, our lives would never be the same again. I'm thankful I had that moment to quietly thank God for the amazing journey that He brought me on in Motherhood.....

    Moments later, my water broke on the elevator going down to pre-op. On my shoes. On my husband's shoes. On my pastor's shoes. Because, only Elise can announce an entrance like that. I'll be praying for you and your family tomorrow. I can't wait to meet the little one. I'll be checking facebook frequently for the announcement tomorrow. <3 Jenny

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  4. We are so full of anticipation. And marveling again at the strangeness of one day the baby's in and the next it's out. Love you dearly....love all of you dearly.... and can't wait to get my hands on that little one! :-) ... and my other big ones!

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